Possibly, it was related to the fact that I feel horribly uncomfortable around crying people, and see it as a sign of their weakness or something like that. I don't know. I just started to suspect I might be broken, and began to pay more attention -
So - finally - a whole bunch of stuff went down at work, and I cried. It was one of those shocked & angry cries, where your face contorts because you're trying not to let it out, but having a difficult time of it. And I cried, then I got angrier, and replaced the crying with ranting and raving. A week later, lo and behold - it happened again. Now I was starting to think - whoa! What's going on here?? Can I now cry if it's something work-related? Am I going to have to find some sort of future-tears detection system to facilitate sneaky trips to the bathroom? Am I going to become one of THOSE women who CRIES at her desk (dear lord, please don't do that to me)? Luckily, that was the end of the crying at work fiasco. I'm planning on never letting it happen again.
- during a movie
- during a book (and during an audiobook, I don't know if they should have their own bullets or not)
- during the Oscars
- When very, very, very sick and in a lot of pain
Long story short - I'm fixed now - and while I still am uncomfortable around crying people (or sick people or depressed people or way more successful than me people and a few others) - and I still feel a bit superior to someone when I see them crying - at least I can be a big loser like them sometimes too.